Here's my truth right now. I can handle everything. I just can't handle everything WELL.
This age & stage finds me juggling A LOT OF BALLS in the air at once. I've accepted the fact that I'm pretty much a TAXI driver, Chef, Hair Stylist, Momager, Personal Shopper, Housekeeper, Waitress and Referee for the summer. But I'm having trouble squeezing ALL of my jobs into one tiny day...and sleeping too. And, I'm a fan sleep so I'm not willing to part with it!
But beyond all of my jobs both in Motherhood and in the great big world of responsibility, there are a ton of things/jobs I value that are just sliding to a place that is unacceptable.
Meaning. I'm handling things OK and getting everything done, for the most part. If I needed proof I got it last week when I had to get three kids to camp ON TIME with loaded backpacks, towels, swim suits, sunscreen, bug spray, water bottles, googles, lunches and more ALL WEEK LONG. I did it! And beyond that the clothes they wore were clean and the water fresh! MIRACLE!!
I'm getting the bills paid, the groceries bought, the forms completed. I'm getting the house cleaned, the laundry done, the bed made and the emails returned. I'm getting the appointments made the follow-ups done the committee work completed. But I just don't feel like I'm getting ANY of it done WELL.
The things I value - being EARLY to things -- well, that has slid a bit. I'm settling for "on time" and calling it good. A heavily rushed frantic on-time most times I might add. The "Thank You" notes I used to be SO DILIGENT about, yeah. They've taken a back seat and the names of those I need to thank roll from one calendar week into the next ... a task I feel strongly about but just keep pushing aside. The laundry? Well, it gets done with a heavy thanks to my husband but done means - sitting clean in baskets and frequently digging through the pile to find what I need.
I have to continue to make peace with these things. I AM doing everything and doing everything the very best that I can. And quite frankly, some days that is better than others. I no longer only accept perfection, I now accept "good enough." Am I a sell out? Am I compromising? YES. Because life is all about the COMPROMISE.
So, if you are waiting for a "thank you note" just know, you are on my list! xo